Society tells us, “To be complete, we need a mate.” We desire a mate because as women, our desire is to have someone to love and to be loved in return. We want a family because we derive our identity through relationships. The closest earthly relationship that we can have is between a husband and wife.
I found myself being desperate because time had passed me by and I was no longer of the age to bear children. When my husband-to-be came into my life, I was so excited about getting married that I ignored my own principle about marriage counseling. I was more concerned with the idea of getting married than the person I was marrying. I had always said that I would go through pre-marital counseling, but I didn’t. I ignored the warning signs such as his financial instability, his many previous marriages, and counsel from close friends. I was looking at my husband-to-be through rose-colored glasses.
I was elated at the chance to get married since I was no “spring chicken.” I tried to cover over our differences and spiritualize our union by saying we would be able to work together in the ministry. I was so caught up with the idea of getting married that I stopped focusing on building the relationship. I lied to myself, saying that some of our incompatibilities were very little and we could overcome them through prayer. But I was really more in love with the idea of marriage than with my spouse-to-be.
In the beginning we were happy and tried hard to make it work because we did not want to disappoint God. I didn’t realize that I had missed the major road signs and the hard fact that he was not the right person for me, and neither was I the right person for him. My mother had great reservations about us getting married but she didn’t want to interfere in my life. Needless to say, this marriage did not have a good start as both of us were in deception about each other.
You might be saying, “You prayed and you still missed the mark.” Yes, I saw only what I wanted to see. God does not take away our free will. We are not infallible, only God is.
Do not be in a hurry to marry someone just because you feel the biological clock is ticking. It is better to be single and happy than to be married and unhappy.
God does not need our help. His plan is to give you a future and a hope. Give God all the time He needs to bring that person to you. Don’t allow the devil to trick you into thinking that the grass is greener on the other side. With the wrong person, it is like living in weeds. Life is not over; there is still time for God to fulfill His promise to you.
Prayer of Healing
Father, forgive me for not trusting You enough to bring the right man/woman into my life. I ask for Your forgiveness for all the times I have tried to fulfill getting a mate through my own efforts and agenda. Today, I decide I will not go ahead of You, just like Sarah did in the Bible when she gave her maid-servant Hagar to Abraham that produced the child Ishmael. I will take hold of the promise in Isaiah 34:16 that You will send the right mate for me. By faith, I thank You for providing my mate.
Seek out the book of the Lord and read: not one of these [details of prophecy] shall fail; none shall want and lack her mate [in fulfillment], for the mouth [of the Lord] has commanded, and His Spirit has gathered them. Isaiah 34:16 (AMP).
If God is concerned about bringing mates for His creation, how concerned He must be about bringing a mate for you, His most valuable creation.
Update for Book
Keep an eye out for my book, Lord, Deliver Me From Me, which is expected to be released by the end of September!
“You act like your father sometimes.”
I hated to hear these words each time my mother said them. Whenever I felt I was being attacked, I would make negative, cutting remarks, because I knew it might be true of me.
You may have heard someone say that you look like your grandmother or have characteristics like your Aunt Susie. Just as there are different kinds of inherited genetic or medical disease tendencies, such as heart disease or diabetes, there are also inherited ancestral sins, which is a heart tendency to get involved in certain sins found in your family line. For example, you may find your family members from different generations having the same common issue, such as addictions, divorce, anger, abuse, depression, etc.
What does generational sin look like? It is like walking outside and accidentally stepping on dog poop. We try vigorously to wipe it off and we think we have gotten it all off, only to step into the house and find ourselves still smelling of dog poop. This is the residue of sin lingering on you.
An Israeli proverb says, “The parents ate the sour grapes and the children had the bitter taste.” In a nutshell, it means that what was permitted in families can still be in effect today if we don’t get the right cure.
Just as we can change the condition of our physical bodies by taking control of our health, we can also put an end to the curses of our ancestral line by stopping them in our generation. God does not want us to continually carry sin and He made provision for us to be free. How do we stop it?
Steps to Stop Generational Sin.
- Acknowledge what the sin is and that you are aware of those tendencies in your bloodline.
- Recognize that someone must own this sin as his or hers and stand in the gap by confession.
- Forgive your ancestors for bringing this sin or sins into your family line and forgive yourself for participating in this sin.
- Stand against the sin
I will not participate with this sin nor have anything to do with it. I break all ties with this from my life and my family’s life because of what Jesus did for me on the Cross through His blood.
Prayer of Healing
I confess the sin of ________________ (name the sin) of my ancestors or parents and even myself. I forgive and release all those persons who brought this sin into my bloodline including myself. I renounce, break, and turn away from this sin of ______________ (name the sin) for myself, and my family, because of the Cross and Jesus’ shed blood. By faith I receive freedom from the sins and curses surrounding them.
In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Many of you haven’t heard from me in a long time because I’ve been busy, out of the country, and finishing up the book, which should come out before the end of this year.
I thought I should reblog this post as I am in the midst of completing my book, Deliver Me from Me. Coming soon!
One day, I was driving in my car and I had been struggling over writing a book. The Lord said to me, “I want you to write a book called Deliver Me from Me.”
Deliver Me from Me is my journey and the transformation of my soul.
The greatest gift God has given us is the ability to forget. If we were to remember all our painful experiences, disappointments and shame in our conscious everyday life; we will go crazy. So we bury those painful experiences without ever dealing with it, and later on in life, they come up at the most in opportune time to affect us. Every experience we have ever had, has molded our personality and makes us act the way we do.
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The greatest revelation I have ever had in my life was to find out that God was truly my Father. He just wasn’t God up in the sky, or Jesus in my heart. He was God, my Father. Whatever kind of father you have, you might have placed his characteristics on your heavenly Father. That is just what I did.
For me, having the concept of God as my heavenly Father was only an intellectual ascent. But the day, I understood that God was my biggest Fan, and He truly loved me unconditionally, changed my very life.
I remember a time in prayer when He began to pour His love on me. The first time, I experienced this was at a prayer meeting. God begin to say, “I love you, I love you, I love you over and over.”
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“I can’t go on, Lord. I have had enough,” I said to myself one Sunday evening. I placed a bottle of sleeping pills in front of me as I sat on my bed.
I had been depressed for several months. I was extremely stressed working in my job, and I was upset with God that I was still single. I was already in my 30s and still not yet married. My hopes and dreams were dashed.
For several months, I went through the motions of going to church every Sunday, and serving Him in full time ministry. But I felt that my life was going in a direction that I had no control over. I felt hopeless and all alone in this world. I was ashamed and didn’t talk to anyone because I felt family and friends wouldn’t understand.
I just wanted to go to sleep and not wake up in pain anymore. I cried out to God to take away my pain.
“I waited and waited and waited for God. At last he looked; finally he listened. He lifted me out of the ditch, pulled me from deep mud. He stood me up on a solid rock to make sure I wouldn’t slip.” Psalms 40:1-2, MSG.
During this time, God reminded me that I have an enemy, Satan, who would love to get credit for cutting my life short. But God showed me that my life was greater than my present circumstances, and what I was experiencing now, did not determine my future.
Life isn’t always fair, but God is just. I didn’t have the last say so over my life, He did, and my future was blessed. God begin to speak life into my destiny, to give me hope.
“The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day.” Psalms 139:16, MSG
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11, NIV
Prayer of Healing
Father, I thank You that You are showing me that I am not without hope. Hope says that there is always the expectation of good coming to me. Lord, Your good surrounds me like a shield. Lord, help me to remember You are the only one that has the authority to give and take life. Forgive me for not honoring Your authority as I consider taking matters into my own hands. Show me the wonderful destiny and plans You have for me.
In Jesus’ Name, Amen.